The Hardest Part

As I sit down to write my heart-wrenching good-bye, I realize that I'm finally at a loss for words. I'm sitting here, staring at the computer screen wondering how I can express exactly how I am feeling. And then I think... this blog thing is going to be hard. It's much easier to write my feelings in a journal, knowing no one will ever read it... but now, I have 17 followers... that's a lot of pressure people. So no judgement.

The hardest part is letting go and saying goodbye. I've never been good at it. My chin wrinkles up, my bottom lip quivers and my voice shakes like a little kid who just fell off her bike. Beyond being an ugly crier, I just hate saying goodbye to the people in my life, even when it's only for a short time.

I was going to be all cliche' about it and tell you how much I'll miss you... how grateful I am to have you in my life... how glad I am that we became so close... how I'm going to miss being your bus-buddy and poking you with a plastic sword... how glad I am that I used to smoke because that's how we became so close... how I'm going to miss dancing and being your biggest fan... how I'm going to miss busting your balls and calling you out... or kicking you in the shins... or yelling at you for looking me up and down and giving me the stink eye... how I'm going to miss doing all of your work... how I'm going to miss you telling me how to properly kill a man with a pen... how I'm going to miss making up acronyms just to prove we are ITK... how I'm going to miss being your WBFF... and talking about why I'm REALLY not on facebook... and how I'm even going to miss all of your white shirts.

I'll miss your laugh, your smile, your wit, your attitude, your teasing, your kindness, your generosity, your friendship and your love.

But then I realized that you would think who the hell just wrote that... So I'm just going to say that I'm glad you're all in my life... and I wouldn't have it any other way.